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INsight	The -ings & -ities of Brooks

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Posted by: brooksiebaby Original: 5/31/2007 8:42 PM Views: 13 Comments: 3 eProps: 4 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Thursday, May 31, 2007

Here I am again... a place in life where I have to let go. I've allowed life to suffocate me instead of invigorate me... All the busyness has been asphyxiating... I literally don't remember breathing for the past two months... I had to break away... I needed to breathe and I did... I went home to WV...

While I didn't do anything elaborate, this had to be the most relaxing vacation ever. I didn't plan anything or even go into it having pre-conceived ideas about what I wanted it to be... I enjoyed the open road, the fresh air, and the time away from it all... I spent time with whoever was available and didn't beat myself up over not making all the rounds, and I didn't care what anybody thought about it... I spent quality time with my grandparents... My Mammaw had two minor storkes earlier this month... I am 27 and very fortunate to have all 4 grandparents alive, but I think we all take our time with our grandparents for granted... It's hard seeing them in their condition and hearing them talk about death... I am almost in tears even typing it... I fear that I may loose all of them in a short period of time and how they will cope without their spouses... It almost makes me feel guilty for living far away from all my family and tempted to move closer to family. I've definitely thought more about Georgia but still no definites and no stress... I just enjoyed my time away... I breathed and tasted lide again.

Last Memorial Day I did a fasting retreat to find out what that next big step in life is and here a year later, I am prepared to do that very thing... become a teacher. I don't understand why I've been stressing over it sooooo much... That doesn't meant that I am going to slack on getting the job, but I am not going to let it stress me out... God spoke it, I made myself eligible for it and I've worked hard for it, God will honor it by giving me favor and ultimately the job. I have faith. Now, I just need to breathe...

If life has you around the neck, embrace it and just breathe. Life will return...

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Awesome! I had a nice long and relaxing last few days too - we sure need that sometimes! Keep seeking! God is so faithful. And I know He is going to do great things in and thru you - you will be a wonderful teacher. I just remember talking with you at alumni wknd and how much your eyes lit up talking about kids and teaching - its in your soul! :) Be strong and courageous!

Posted 6/1/2007 1:03 AM by Recherche - reply

Hey Brooks! I was wondering how you were the other day, so I'm glad you posted! I can so relate to this post. I've been stressing somewhat over what I feel God has for me next...I don't know why I stress so much, He's always faithful!

I'm sorry to hear about your grandparents. I only have one grandparent living and I am somewhat her primary 'caregiver'...it's exhausting sometimes, but she is my dad's mother and I know if he were still here, he would do it for her...So, I'm kinda doing it for her and for him. I'm glad to hear you've decided about teaching. Are you still in Nashville? I've thought about moving there...do you like it? Is it really expensive? Good churches?

Posted 6/4/2007 10:16 AM by arohanui24 - reply

That's for the info. RYC: I was living in DC, but now I am back in NC. Yes, living in DC is sooo expensive, esp. compared to here. I can make the same amount of money in NC that I would in DC and here in NC I have my own place, etc. in DC, you would have to share a place with like 3-4 others just to pay rent and survive on what I make! It's crazy expensive! Yeah, I know about the high sales tax in TN, we often go shopping in TN, but the income tax thing is good, but personally, I really like getting that lump sum check at the beginning of the year! (As you can tell, I don't make enough yet to have to PAY something in.

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